Just me, a wife to a wonderful husband, child of Christ, working mom to one active little boy, rambling about everyday life...

Saturday, July 25, 2009


I feel unsettled. No not unhappy...just unsettled. I feel that I need to be doing more. I need to contribute more. I feel a stirring in my soul. You know when you have a nagging feeling not quite sure what it is...that's what I have. I don't want to live my life just going through the motions. I want to have a purpose.

Sometimes, I am lazy. I admit. I can easily get lost watching a silly tv show, when I know there are things I should be doing.

Right now my life feels lazy. Hohum. I don't like that feeling. I think I needed this time of rest. But I am ready. I am ready for the next chapter in an adventure or comedy book, or even a romance book.

When I get too content and lazy, I will often pray for God to push me. Push me to a feeling of unsettled. I want to be challenged. I want to seek what HIS purpose and I want to be HIS purpose.

Do you ever feel unsettled, lazy, comfortable? What do you do?

Saturday, July 18, 2009

I think I need a binkie.

Oh my ...why did I ever think this week was a the week to give up the binkie? B is almost 2, and he only got his binkie at bedtime. They stayed in his crib and sometimes he would sneak in there for a little binkie time, but other than that he was really pretty good.

Last Monday, I thought "we are done with the binkie". I don't think there is and easy way to do it, so I cut the tip off of his favorite one and left the other one in his bed.

Night #1: 45 minutes to go to sleep. He cried. I did not do too bad.

Night #2: at least 45 minutes to go to sleep. We left his door open and the light on in the hallway. He talked but really no crying. Me? Not too bad.

Night #3: The same as Night 1 and 2.

I would continue outlining each night, but it's the same. You might say, that's not bad...but here is the kicker. It's not GETTING him to go to sleep, it's keeping him asleep. For over a week now, he is waking up from anywhere between 10:30 and 2 and crying. Everyone says, let them cry it out. Okay after 2 hours...I have to go get him and put him in bed with us. I AM SPENT.

Last night, I about lost it. I am not getting a good nights sleep, hubs would like a normal wife back and B is so whiney in the mornings.

All my friends say, it gets better after 3 days. Well three days have gone and past and I need a binkie!